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NAME: JONES HANDLE: @ALIAS PICTURE: Middle finger, face out of frame.

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okay done.

[heliophilous]

all right
good to know you're alive

at least i got that out of you

[grunge]

[ he's so lucky she's as drunk as it sounds like he is, or she would leave it at the one "stop". ]

These marks?

[ she ends an image of her forearm dotted with circular bruises ]

[heliophilous]

looks familiar.

( so yes, those marks. )

no memories of how either?

[grunge]

No but
The last message on my phone was someone asking for help at the beach

[heliophilous]

yeah.
i ended up chained to a rock
and didn't do what they wanted.

[grunge]

Shit
I'm sorry

[heliophilous]

stop
wasn't your choice
nothing could have been done to fix it.

[grunge]

[ fuck this place. fuck how nothing can ever be done. that must have been what Kisa needed her help with, and she failed her too. Jess can't remember if she saw Marcos there or not. but she knows, if she did, she would have chosen to save Kisa first all the same. ]

Did you wake up on the shore?

[heliophilous]

yeah.
guess some time had passed.
i don't really know.
it's been a weird few days.

[grunge]

Its been a weird few weeks

I'm drinking again

[heliophilous]

( he doesn't lecture her because this place could just make it happen. )

wanna talk about it?
or tell me about it.

what happened?

[grunge]

It wasn't my choice to stop

[ there's a delay of several minutes as she drinks up the nerve to expand upon that. ]

They messed with my head
They shot me up with a drug that changed how I saw things, how I felt
Made me sober as some uncharacteristic puritanical bullshit perk
It was still in me the last time I was over

[heliophilous]

it was still in you?
and you didn't tell me that?

( she'd seemed all right if a little mellow. but maybe that's what he should've paid more attention to.)

is that all it did?

[grunge]

[ she didn't tell him that. she didn't want to scare him. she's in her right mind again and he should be scared. ]

Yeah
That's all

[heliophilous]

so, why the disappearing act?
don't want to see me?

( he doesn't press on what happened to her even if a part of him believes she's not giving him the whole truth. )

[grunge]

Its not that

I don't want you to see me [ which is totally different. ]

[heliophilous]

why not?

[grunge]

Because you don't either
Unless you've got a thing for broken glass and puke

[heliophilous]

making my choices for me now?

[grunge]

I can take care of myself

[heliophilous]

i never said you couldn't.
that doesn't mean i don't want to help

[grunge]

I didn't help you
We were both goddamn at the beach

[heliophilous]

jessica.
what happened happened.
i'm all right.

if we're doing that, i didn't help you either.

[grunge]

Then we're even

[heliophilous]

fine
we're even

does that mean stop making my decisions for me?